" she already told you, just give up"
" no, but everything's fine.."
" it's NOT, it'll never be"
" but.."
" the meaning has been made clear, and everything was that, there's nothing to change"
" but she's my friend!"
" yes, your friend a minute or so ago. not anymore"

at that, i was met with the cruel truth
its true
it may be already time to give up
but was it?
for that, i couldn't be sure

but i was certainly sure,
that this marked the end
and the end, it shall be

maybe it had already been obvious
that it's time to leave
but i couldn't
my heart still lingered
and i couldn't catch it back

/edit
i woke up tear-stained this morning
that dream had been a scary one
and for some obscure reason i cried while having it

for 2 consecutive nights
ive been dreaming about me on bikes-.=
and falling into holes and knocked by cars and things like that
:/
but something was so different about that dream yesterday
it actually seemed real
and in fact,
too real
---

if you think,
that sometimes
my post may be directed to you.
then that shall be
it'll be for you

~toodles